Of course, sleep rarely comes to a troubled mind. And Mikhail was troubled indeed. Dark thoughts and painful memories drove away the rest that he desperately needed. The evening so long ago when he and Vitaliy—just boys then!—had stumbled upon the red glow of the ashroom cave. The night when he and the Elder had trembled in the forest clearing as the dragon's shadow had swallowed the starlight. Village after burnt village that he and Spirit had met on their long quest. Aruzhan's warm smile atop the church tower under the dancing Northern lights. The spark of trust and hope in the Princess's eyes—so rare for one who had felt the terror of dragon fire. Mikhail's own haggard reflection in the cracks of the ice mirror, where he had first seen the monster's smoke and flame in his own eyes.

Memory after memory crashed down upon the fallen Knight as he lay in the familiar bed, a place where he had spent many nights of his youth dreaming of nobility and courage and daring deeds of kindness and goodness. “Faithful and true in all that I do,” he heard a boy's voice—his own—echo in the darkness. “Faithful and true in all that I do.”

Thoughts and emotions are strange things, aren't they? Alone among all the beautiful creatures that call this earth home, Knights and Princesses can choose what they think and feel. It is among the rarest of gifts, and so rarely understood. For far too many people allow their thoughts and feelings to control them instead...and it often leads to misery.

Without question, Mikhail felt miserable: miserable and afraid and confused. And all at once, he remembered how good it had felt not to feel at all. He remembered how tall he and Vitaliy had stood as the ashrooms cleared away their feelings, dulled their fears, and focused their minds. For months now, Mikhail had been a shadow of the noble Knight he once was, a broken and lost man wandering in the endless forest.

“I am tired of feeling shame and sorrow.” Mikhail hissed to himself as he rose from his old bed in the middle of the starless night. “I am sick of discouragement.” He moved silently through the Elder's house and lit a torch in the embers of the fireplace. “I am weary of despair.” The fallen Knight closed the front door behind him and strode quickly through the darkened streets of his village. His hand tightened around the small wooden box that had hung empty at his belt for far too long. “And I finally know exactly what to do,” he muttered towards the heavy clouds above.

As he reached the western field, Mikhail broke into a jog, then a run, past the old bathhouse and into the trees. The light of his torch glimmered and dimmed as he dashed ever faster and deeper into the gnarled shadows of the forest.

Memories good and bad were plentiful in the Village Elder's house that night. They had kept the old man up as well. At length he had risen from his own bed to check on Mikhail. Parents often do this, you know, even after their children have grown up. It reminds them of selfless thoughts and loving feelings which are more important than any others. In his own grief, the Village Elder hoped for a reminder...but found an empty bed.

With a speed that would impress even Spirit, the Elder ran from his house and through the village. He had learned from Mikhail the location of the accursed ashroom cave earlier that evening. The Village Elder was a very wise man, but even the village beet farmer, Ivan, (who was...somewhat less wise) would have guessed where the fallen Knight had gone.

As the Elder reached the edge of the western field and caught his breath, he saw a tremendous spout of flame shoot up in the night sky from deep in the forest. “I am too late,” he gasped, and bitter tears of sorrow sprung to his old eyes, sorrow for his lost son, and sorrow for their village that would surely be burned before the morning came. And then the Elder began to run once again...straight into the forest.

As a rule, it is rarely a good idea to chase fiery dragons into dark forests armed only with a set of pajamas and a sputtering torch. But the Village Elder carried something else with him as he worked his way through the grasping branches of the gnarled trees. He carried his love for his son, and love is a weapon more powerful even than dragon fire. Love conquers fear and chooses hope...even in the darkest of forests.

But the Village Elder's hope began to quake as the light ahead grew hotter and brighter. At length the old man stepped into a small forest clearing and shaded his eyes against the pillar of fire before him.

There stood Mikhail, dark against the roaring flames, a small wooden box clutched in his hand. His father's gleaming sword leaned against the nearby stump of one of many trees which had been chopped down to feed the bonfire that now engulfed the ashroom cave. The domed roof had already collapsed in on itself, and the gutted cavern sunk deeper and deeper into the flame-softened mud. A dusty red glow from hundreds of wilting ashrooms disappeared under burning wood and falling rock.

Mikhail turned and noticed the Village Elder for the first time. He bowed in respect, and nobility and clarity shone in his eyes.

“I am a Knight.” Mikhail stood tall and grim amidst the smoke billowing from the ruined cave and tossed the small box into the roaring flames.  “I slay dragons...even my own.”

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